The Protective Thoughts Exercise
How to identify the beliefs protecting you from the life you want
Earlier this week, I wrote about The Thoughts That Stole My Life related to patterns of:
Worry
Perfectionism
Independence
Comfort
Waiting
The surprising thing wasn’t realizing these thoughts were limiting me. The surprising thing was realizing they weren’t trying to hurt me.
They were trying to protect me.
That insight has changed the way I relate to almost every difficult thought I have.
Especially one that has haunted me at the end of nearly every romantic relationship. It usually sounds something like this:
This is all my fault.
I should have been able to stop it.
The details change.
Sometimes I should have left sooner. Sometimes I should have communicated differently.
Been more patient. Been less patient.
Known better. Chosen differently.
But somehow I often arrive at the same conclusion:
This was my responsibility.
For most of my life, I treated this thought as evidence. Evidence that I had more work to do. Evidence that I had failed somehow. Evidence that if I could just understand what I’d done wrong, I could prevent the same thing from happening again.
The latest ending in my life brought these thoughts back again. Only this time, I have a different set of tools.
Instead of asking whether the thought was true, I asked a different question:
What is this thought trying to protect me from?
And that question changes everything. Because I realized the thoughts aren’t trying to reveal the truth. They’re trying to protect me from difficult emotional states.
The thoughts are trying to protect me from helplessness.
Because if everything was my fault, then maybe I could have prevented the ending. Maybe I could have controlled it. Maybe I wasn’t powerless.
The thoughts are trying to protect me from grief.
Because the moment I fully accept that I cannot make another person choose honesty, accountability, or communication, I have to grieve.
Not just the relationship. But the future I thought I was building. The family I had. The version of our life that no longer exists.
The thoughts are trying to protect me from anger.
Because if everything was my fault, then I never have to fully confront the ways I was hurt. The ways I was lied to. The ways I was left carrying uncertainty. The ways I was asked to absorb the consequences of choices that weren’t mine.
The thoughts are trying to protect me from uncertainty.
Because uncertainty is painful. And self-blame creates a clean story. Reality is usually much messier.
When I completed the exercise recently, this is what emerged:
These thoughts protect me from helplessness, grief, anger, and uncertainty.
These thoughts cost me self-compassion, peace, and the ability to move forward.
The thoughts don’t disappear. They still show up. But now I understand them differently.
Instead of treating them like the truth, I recognize them as protectors. A part of me trying — however imperfectly — to make sense of pain. And once I saw that, I started noticing the same pattern everywhere.
In my creativity.
In my finances.
In my relationships.
In the stories I tell myself about what is and isn’t possible.
That’s what this exercise is about. Not getting rid of difficult thoughts. Not replacing them with positive ones.
But learning to recognize when a thought is acting as a protector — and deciding whether it’s still helping you to create the life you want.
Step 1: Identify the Thought
Think about an area of your life where you feel stuck.
Relationships
Creativity
Money
Work
Health
Ask yourself:
What thought keeps showing up here?
Examples:
I have to do it alone.
Nobody is coming.
I’ll start when I’m ready.
If I fail, everything falls apart.
It’s safer not to get my hopes up.
People always leave.
I’m too much.
I’m not enough.
Don’t worry about whether the thought is rational. Don’t try to fix it. Just notice it. Write it down.
Step 2: Ask What It’s Protecting
This is the question that has changed everything for me.
Instead of asking:
Is this thought true?
Ask:
What is this thought trying to protect me from?
Take your best guess.
For example:
“I have to do it alone.”
Might be protecting you from:
disappointment
rejection
dependence
vulnerability
“I’ll start when I’m ready.”
Might be protecting you from:
failure
embarrassment
uncertainty
Remember:
Protective thoughts usually have good intentions. Treat them with curiosity rather than judgment.
Step 3: Calculate the Cost
Complete these two sentences:
This thought protects me from __________.
This thought costs me __________.
For example:
“This thought protects me from disappointment.”
“But it costs me intimacy.”
Or:
“This thought protects me from criticism.”
“But it costs me creative expression.”
Most protective thoughts are not free. They always charge a price.
Sometimes that price is creativity. Sometimes it’s connection. Sometimes it’s opportunity. Sometimes it’s joy. Sometimes it’s a life that feels fully lived.
Step 4: Notice What Happens in Your Body
Before trying to change anything, pause.
Read the thought. Read what it’s protecting you from. Read what it’s costing you.
Then ask:
What emotions arise?
What sensations do I notice?
Where do I feel this in my body?
Tightness? Heaviness? Numbness? Heat? Relief?
Many of us try to think our way out of beliefs that are actually being held in the nervous system.
Awareness comes before change. Curiosity comes before change. Compassion comes before change.
Step 5: Choose Participation Over Protection
This is the most important step.
Don’t ask:
How do I stop having this thought?
Instead ask:
What would participation look like?
Not certainty. Not confidence.
Participation.
If the thought is:
“I have to do it alone.”
Participation might look like:
asking for help
joining a group
sharing something vulnerable
letting yourself be supported
If the thought is:
“I’ll start when I’m ready.”
Participation might look like:
publishing the draft
submitting the application
having the conversation
signing up for the class
The goal is not to eliminate fear. The goal is to stop letting fear make all your decisions.
A Final Thought
The thoughts that steal our lives are not villains. More often, they’re loyal protectors who have stayed on duty long after the danger has passed.
You don’t need to shame them.
You don’t need to fight them.
You don’t even need to get rid of them.
You simply need to remember that protection and participation are not the same thing.
The question isn’t:
What am I afraid of?
The question is:
What is my fear costing me?
Because every meaningful thing I’ve ever wanted has required me to become vulnerable to exactly the things I was trying to avoid.
Love requires uncertainty.
Creativity requires imperfection.
Growth requires discomfort.
Community requires interdependence.
A meaningful life requires participation before guarantees arrive.
If the essay earlier this week was about the thoughts that stole my life, this exercise is about how I’m learning to stop handing them the keys.
Journal Prompt
What thought has been protecting you?
What has it protected you from?
And what has it cost you?
I’d love to hear your answers in the comments.
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Hi, I’m Bowie 👋🏼
I write about creativity, relationships, psychology, and reinvention — and how we stop surviving and start participating in our lives again.
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